My love life!!! Here come the carpal tunnel...

Hi again! So I guess now that you know who I am, I should talk about my life some... First I'll start with my love life... Oh boy here we go... Anyway, so through most of my years of school, I never had a boyfriend... Kinda why I started to like girls... Never had a boyfriend so I thought "hey why not!" In 10th grade though it changed (Iwas still Bi though). I started researching Hypnosis, a hobby of mine. Joining several hypnosis groups on yahoo, I met a man named hypnoticpudding (yep silly name I know.) We chatted online and I agreed to let him trance me... I'm not going to say anything else about that night other than he pissed me off so much I should have stopped talking to him... but I didn't for some reason... We kept talking for a few months and eventually he confessed his love for me. Mind you, this was the first person to ever say that to me so i was shocked, but i agreed i had the same feelings and so we started dating. It wasn't easy, since we were in different states, me in WV and him in NY, but we made it work. We stayed together for 2 years until things got interesting... We met a girl named Carina. At first we were all friends, but eventually me and Jon fell in love with her as well and invited her into the relationship making it a 3 way relationship. This lasted a year and personally I loved it... until a certain incident... This marked the downfall of the relationship. Me and Jon made a decision of leaving Carina and being on our own again... By this time me and Jon had been together almost 4 years... Eventually, Jon had pissed me off and I broke up with him for Carina... Honestly I did this like 3 times... (I was very unstable after all this occured) but every time it didn't work so i would leave and return to Jon, who promised everytime to "do things better this time". Well during the Christmas months I thought a lot about Carina, especially when Jon was down for the holidays. Eventually I talked to her in January and said, after much consideration, I would leave Jon for Carina again. This only lasted 5 months however and I recently left her again in order to get life straight. It was a difficult decision but the stress of my life was killing me... and she sure wasn't helping. Who knows what the future holds... only time will tell.... Any more questions please feel free to leave a comment.